Let's assume you have an addiction. Let's assume you've gotten help for this addiction and are doing really well fighting your demons. Let's be honest. I rarely hear (although I have occasionally) testimonials from individuals who had an addiction and BAM, it was gone! No more struggling. God truly does work miracles, doesn't He? But I'd say most people who struggle with an addiction....struggle....their. entire. life. Some days are easier than others. Some 'phases' in life are easier than others. And some are downright hopeless feeling.
So, back to the addiction we assume you have. Close your eyes. Okay, wait- read this first, and THEN close your eyes. You've come to a place in your addiction where you feel confident you can 'beat' this. You can live in more of a 'good state' than an awful one. In fact, you've been pretty successful for quite some time now. But every time you relapse (because it happens, people) - not only do those closest to you find out, but a pretty large chunk of the world finds out too. Okay - you just relapsed and your loved ones know plus everyone is talking about it on the news and Internet - close you eyes and imagine it. I'll wait.
What did your thought make you feel like? Mine sorta made me feel like I got punched in the gut. Can't breathe. Don't really want to. Awful. Just...freaking...awful....how could I be so stupid? Shame. Completely and utter shame. Embarrassed. Not for me...for my life...for my kids, my spouse, my friends. I'm sorry. I don't know how I let this happen. I'm sorry...................
Josh Hamilton not only has to face his wife and teammates when he relapses, but then has to talk about it at a press conference with tons of reporters and thousands of pictures being taken. I couldn't imagine having to do that. I feel like my pride would so easily get defensive and who knows if Hamilton has similar feelings. "Who are all these people that I 'owe' an explanation to?" But Hamilton so graciously gives it - one could only imagine how humbling that experience truly is.
Most of us have a hard enough time facing our spouses when we mess up (if we even tell our spouses). I'd like to share this quote that I believe is anonymous: